Entangled
My mother tests positive for Covid today.
Everything, the physicists say,
is made of energy. Seems we knew,
when we used to say, I’ll send you love.
Or when we said, I’ll pray for you.
My mother lives in a nursing home.
and my thoughts are travelers,
an energy that touches hers.
This is finally science now,
joining ranks with poets and mystics.
Ten decades and two years more,
my mother’s been alive on earth.
It doesn’t matter overmuch,
what they will call the cause
when her time to go arrives.
What matters is, she hasn’t had a visitor
since Covid came six months ago.
She lives in her room, and now
will likely die alone, even if
restrictions in general are lifted.
My mother has eight living children
who cannot say goodbye.
One of them has cared for her
every single day for many years.
To whom does the sadness belong?
My mother was famous for no regrets.
Perhaps she said her goodbyes long ago.
It seems she’s unwinding her spool of life
and the movie is not yet complete.
I refuse to presume her loneliness.
Literature was my mother’s love.
If she still was choosing to speak,
she might well quote Rilke:
Let everything happen to you,
beauty & terror. No feeling is final.
My mother is far from me.
but I am entangled with her,
connected through the quantum field.
And so I send my messages of love today,
transmitting pings of little pleasures.
And so I know, in some way she,
like a satellite dish, receives
her children’s heartfelt sendings,
messages we cannot say in person.
However it continues on, I honor
the path of my mother’s life.
©Susa Silvermarie 2020
My heart to yours, dear friend. Holding you and your mother and your family in the Light.
always,
Kate
This is profoundly beautiful, Susa.
So beautiful and well said
Sad but true. My prayers for your family
Sending positive thoughts and prayers. Love ❤️ and hugs
Sister Susa–
in solidarity with you reaching ‘out’ beyond time-&-space to your Mother…
perhaps you know of the deep meditation practice known as ‘tonglen’,
as taught by one of my mentors, Pema Chodron–
passed to you with great love at this profound time, Susie & Harvey
*
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QwqlurCvXuM
Susa… so much love… there is so much love between you, I feel it all gooey and thick from up here. Like warm golden honey ?✌️?
What a perfect, brilliant, special,
heart wrenching poem, Susa.
With you.
Joany
Oh, Susa, I am so sorry for your mother and all of you.
Sending Love and prayers to your Family..Such a beautiful poem and thoughts you put together!Thinking of you and family at this time!!
My dear Susa, I am sending you, your mother and all those that love her my thoughts and prayers for whatever is needed; comfort, peace, release, just to name a few.
Sending Love and prayers to your Family..Such a beautiful poem and thoughts you put together!Thinking of you and family at this time!!
Susa, such a wise and beautiful expression of love and acceptance, poignant and moving.
Many blessings to you and your family.
Lynn
My prayers are with you Marie
My thoughts are with all of your children
Blessings and strength
Shalom
My Thoughts and love are with you and your family
Aunt Susa,
Such a beautiful poem for such a beautiful soul. I love every word. I am sending pings of love to Grandma, too ?
All my love, Angie
Love is healing energy. I send lots of it to your mother, to you and each and every member of your family.
Simone
thanks mom, your words are fluid and fitting and with love. Grandma is always a special one to me too.