My mother tests positive for Covid today.
Everything, the physicists say,
is made of energy. Seems we knew,
when we used to say, I’ll send you love.
Or when we said, I’ll pray for you.

My mother lives in a nursing home.
and my thoughts are travelers,
an energy that touches hers.
This is finally science now,
joining ranks with poets and mystics.

Ten decades  and two years more,
my mother’s been alive on earth.
It doesn’t matter overmuch,
what they will call the cause
when her time to go arrives.

What matters is, she hasn’t had a visitor
since Covid came six months ago.
She lives in her room, and now
will likely die alone, even if
restrictions in general are lifted.

My mother has eight living children
who cannot say goodbye.
One of them has cared for her
every single day for many years.
To whom does the sadness belong?

My mother was famous for no regrets.
Perhaps she said her goodbyes long ago.
It seems she’s unwinding her spool of life
and the movie is not yet complete.
I refuse to presume her loneliness.

Literature was my mother’s love.
If she still was choosing to speak,
she might well quote Rilke:
Let everything happen to you,
beauty & terror. No feeling is final.

My mother is far from me.
but I am entangled with her,
connected through the quantum field.
And so I send my messages of love today,
transmitting pings of little pleasures.

And so I know, in some way she,
like a satellite dish, receives
her children’s heartfelt sendings,
messages we cannot say in person.
However it continues on, I honor
the path of my mother’s life.

©Susa Silvermarie 2020

17 Responses to “Entangled

  • My heart to yours, dear friend. Holding you and your mother and your family in the Light.

    • Jane Morgan
      1 month ago

      This is profoundly beautiful, Susa.

    • Diane Johannes
      1 month ago

      So beautiful and well said
      Sad but true. My prayers for your family

  • Sending positive thoughts and prayers. Love ❤️ and hugs

  • Sister Susa–
    in solidarity with you reaching ‘out’ beyond time-&-space to your Mother…
    perhaps you know of the deep meditation practice known as ‘tonglen’,
    as taught by one of my mentors, Pema Chodron–
    passed to you with great love at this profound time, Susie & Harvey

  • Susa… so much love… there is so much love between you, I feel it all gooey and thick from up here. Like warm golden honey 🐝✌️🌻

  • Joan Franklin
    1 month ago

    What a perfect, brilliant, special,
    heart wrenching poem, Susa.
    With you.

  • Janice Durand
    1 month ago

    Oh, Susa, I am so sorry for your mother and all of you.

    • Beth Schultz
      1 month ago

      Sending Love and prayers to your Family..Such a beautiful poem and thoughts you put together!Thinking of you and family at this time!!

  • My dear Susa, I am sending you, your mother and all those that love her my thoughts and prayers for whatever is needed; comfort, peace, release, just to name a few.

  • Beth Schultz
    1 month ago

    Sending Love and prayers to your Family..Such a beautiful poem and thoughts you put together!Thinking of you and family at this time!!

  • Lynn Miller
    1 month ago

    Susa, such a wise and beautiful expression of love and acceptance, poignant and moving.
    Many blessings to you and your family.

  • Judith Arends Berger
    1 month ago

    My prayers are with you Marie
    My thoughts are with all of your children
    Blessings and strength

  • Steve Gilles
    1 month ago

    My Thoughts and love are with you and your family

  • Angie Sartori
    1 month ago

    Aunt Susa,

    Such a beautiful poem for such a beautiful soul. I love every word. I am sending pings of love to Grandma, too 💕

    All my love, Angie

  • Simone Roy
    1 month ago

    Love is healing energy. I send lots of it to your mother, to you and each and every member of your family.

  • David Sartori
    1 month ago

    thanks mom, your words are fluid and fitting and with love. Grandma is always a special one to me too.

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